Today was a pretty boring day. I woke up this morning with morning sickness :( Not to much fun. Every time would raise my head up, I would get so dizzy. I got nothing accomplished as far as house work goes today. I did manage to get my lazy bum off of the couch to go to work. At work I steamed clothes.... the entire 5hours I was there. My back hurt and I burnt my head so bad I blistered it. Again, not much fun :( After work I came home and saw my husband for a total of ten minutes before I started to head out the door again but this time I was going to church. My brother was preaching tonight at this little church near our home. His message was so inspiring. I am so thankful I have grown up in church. My children will grow up in church also :)
Tomorrow we have to go to court for this little boy we were trying to get custody of. I am not really looking forward to going to court, because we are no longer going to be fighting for custody of this little boy. So we will be going to just be going I guess. We basically have no other choice. But hey it gets me off of work.
On Friday I am going to the doctor to see if my baby is health, then I can start telling people I am pregnant! I am so excited. Please pray everything goes well. My husband and I have wanted children so badly, and we have already had a great loss in our family.
Again, I feel like I am writing to no one. I don't even know if someone has read my blog or not. That kinda bothers me, but then again, atleast I am writing and expressing my feelings to the world. Whether the world is reading my feelings or not. Good Night bloggers.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
Random thoughts
I am sitting here alone in my pjs on my living room floor. My husband has just left for work, just like any normal day. He was running around the house late for work while complaining that the house needs to be cleaned, and that he cant live like this. I know I have cleaning to do, lots of cleaning to do. But who in there right mind would want to clean? I have a laptop with blogger pulled up and facebook, and then I have a big screen tv with any movie I wanta watch on it. So again, I ask, who wants to clean when you have all of this freedom?
When I sit at home alone, it gives me time to think. "Me Time" is what we will call it. My husband would love to have all of this "me time" like I have, but to be honest, I hate being home alone. I would rather be around tons of people. I am a people person. My husband on the other hand, he would rather be alone.
My husband just called to tell me that he made it to work. I worry about my hubby if I dont get a phone call. He works an hour away from where we live. See when we first got married we were going to move closer to his work, but we decided to try to get custody of this little boy who is in a rough situation. We moved here, to nowhereville, after having the little boy for two months (one week before our court date to get custody) his family came and took him back. I was so angry!! We had done so much for this little boy, but the fight isnt over because Thursday we have to go to court. Ive never even been to court before. I dont even know what to wear. My husband is such a wonderful man for allowing us to take that little boy even if his family did take him back two weekends ago.
I am pregnant and I am very scared. My husband and I have already had one miscarriage back in May. We haven't told anyone that I am pregnant yet, we are waiting until our doctors appointment on Friday to know for sure everything checks out. I am so nervous about this pregnancy and I am excited all at the same time. I want as many kids as possible. I really wanta have twins, but idk if I can handle twins. God wouldn't give me anything I couldn't handle.
I have to go to my dead in job today where I only get paid minimum wage, but then again, I get to sit down and read for most of the day. I just hate my job so much. It makes me feel like a loser. How could I have been so stupid to not finish college. My husband has a wonderful job and he doesnt even realize it, I wish I had a good job. One with normal hours and not having to work on the weekends. My husband is so lucky, I wish I was half as smart as him, then I could go places too. I just want a job that would make me proud to say this is where I work.
Enough of the bad thoughts or the stupid blog that no one is going to read, I am going to eat some pizza! Catch yal later.
When I sit at home alone, it gives me time to think. "Me Time" is what we will call it. My husband would love to have all of this "me time" like I have, but to be honest, I hate being home alone. I would rather be around tons of people. I am a people person. My husband on the other hand, he would rather be alone.
My husband just called to tell me that he made it to work. I worry about my hubby if I dont get a phone call. He works an hour away from where we live. See when we first got married we were going to move closer to his work, but we decided to try to get custody of this little boy who is in a rough situation. We moved here, to nowhereville, after having the little boy for two months (one week before our court date to get custody) his family came and took him back. I was so angry!! We had done so much for this little boy, but the fight isnt over because Thursday we have to go to court. Ive never even been to court before. I dont even know what to wear. My husband is such a wonderful man for allowing us to take that little boy even if his family did take him back two weekends ago.
I am pregnant and I am very scared. My husband and I have already had one miscarriage back in May. We haven't told anyone that I am pregnant yet, we are waiting until our doctors appointment on Friday to know for sure everything checks out. I am so nervous about this pregnancy and I am excited all at the same time. I want as many kids as possible. I really wanta have twins, but idk if I can handle twins. God wouldn't give me anything I couldn't handle.
I have to go to my dead in job today where I only get paid minimum wage, but then again, I get to sit down and read for most of the day. I just hate my job so much. It makes me feel like a loser. How could I have been so stupid to not finish college. My husband has a wonderful job and he doesnt even realize it, I wish I had a good job. One with normal hours and not having to work on the weekends. My husband is so lucky, I wish I was half as smart as him, then I could go places too. I just want a job that would make me proud to say this is where I work.
Enough of the bad thoughts or the stupid blog that no one is going to read, I am going to eat some pizza! Catch yal later.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Frustration
Today while eating the wonderful meal my hubby made me, I realized how frustrated I am that I didn't ever finish college. If only I would have done better in high school then maybe I would have liked college a little better. I did love college but I just loved the money I was making so much better. So I dropped out of college to continue with my dead end job as training servers. How could I have been so stupid? I really wish I could go back to college, but I just don't think I have what it takes. I know I don't have the money and I am pretty sure I don't have the brains brains anymore.
When I was younger, I wanted to do great things with my life. I wanted to be a wedding planner, or a lawyer, or maybe a social service worker. Now I would love to do all of those things and much much more. I think it would be nice to open up my own restaurant with my husband. We talk about it all the time. He wants to open up a sandwich shop but I would rather open up a nice fancy sit down restaurant. I would like to serve some kind of Italian food. I love Italian. If I wasn't scared to get on a airplane, I would so fly to Italy and learn how to cook just as great as they do.
I just started watching Julia and Julia or something like that, and I would so love to write a cookbook. But all the recipes that I use are ones I found, not ones I made up. I mean we don't have enough money to go around making up a bunch of food and wasting a bunch of food if we don't like it. Sometimes I wish I was real rich but then again everyone says that life is so much more fun when you're broke. And we will look back on these days when we are old and smile. Boy I hope that is true.
When I was younger, I wanted to do great things with my life. I wanted to be a wedding planner, or a lawyer, or maybe a social service worker. Now I would love to do all of those things and much much more. I think it would be nice to open up my own restaurant with my husband. We talk about it all the time. He wants to open up a sandwich shop but I would rather open up a nice fancy sit down restaurant. I would like to serve some kind of Italian food. I love Italian. If I wasn't scared to get on a airplane, I would so fly to Italy and learn how to cook just as great as they do.
I just started watching Julia and Julia or something like that, and I would so love to write a cookbook. But all the recipes that I use are ones I found, not ones I made up. I mean we don't have enough money to go around making up a bunch of food and wasting a bunch of food if we don't like it. Sometimes I wish I was real rich but then again everyone says that life is so much more fun when you're broke. And we will look back on these days when we are old and smile. Boy I hope that is true.
Introduction to me :)
Today is a new day. Its the start of my online blog. My husband and I just got married in July and we are so happy. I just recently got a new job. Its a pretty boring job but it gives me something to do while my husband is away at work. He is gone for most of the day and it gets pretty boring at home in this little apartment. Anyways, back to where I work. I work at this stupid bra store at this mall that is completely falling apart. There are only four stores left in this mall and I am shocked that our store hasnt gone out of business yet. I do nothing all day at work except read books. Which is so weird because truth be told, I hate reading. But here recently I have started reading alot of cookbooks. I am trying to learn how to cook to keep my husband happy lol. I do love cooking, and I love it when I try to cook something new. To be honest tho, cooking can get kinda old sometimes, thats why I am so thankful my husband is making dinner tonight :) I bet it is going to be wonderful.
Well I know I am not a good blogger but I will be back on later to write more. Getting ready to watch "Shes out of my league" with my hubby.
Well I know I am not a good blogger but I will be back on later to write more. Getting ready to watch "Shes out of my league" with my hubby.
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