Frustration

Today while eating the wonderful meal my hubby made me, I realized how frustrated I am that I didn't ever finish college. If only I would have done better in high school then maybe I would have liked college a little better. I did love college but I just loved the money I was making so much better. So I dropped out of college to continue with my dead end job as training servers. How could I have been so stupid? I really wish I could go back to college, but I just don't think I have what it takes. I know I don't have the money and I am pretty sure I don't have the brains brains anymore.

When I was younger, I wanted to do great things with my life. I wanted to be a wedding planner, or a lawyer, or maybe a social service worker. Now I would love to do all of those things and much much more. I think it would be nice to open up my own restaurant with my husband. We talk about it all the time. He wants to open up a sandwich shop but I would rather open up a nice fancy sit down restaurant. I would like to serve some kind of Italian food. I love Italian. If I wasn't scared to get on a airplane, I would so fly to Italy and learn how to cook just as great as they do.

I just started watching Julia and Julia or something like that, and I would so love to write a cookbook. But all the recipes that I use are ones I found, not ones I made up. I mean we don't have enough money to go around making up a bunch of food and wasting a bunch of food if we don't like it. Sometimes I wish I was real rich but then again everyone says that life is so much more fun when you're broke. And we will look back on these days when we are old and smile. Boy I hope that is true.