Random thoughts

I am sitting here alone in my pjs on my living room floor. My husband has just left for work, just like any normal day. He was running around the house late for work while complaining that the house needs to be cleaned, and that he cant live like this. I know I have cleaning to do, lots of cleaning to do. But who in there right mind would want to clean? I have a laptop with blogger pulled up and facebook, and then I have a big screen tv with any movie I wanta watch on it. So again, I ask, who wants to clean when you have all of this freedom?

When I sit at home alone, it gives me time to think. "Me Time" is what we will call it. My husband would love to have all of this "me time" like I have, but to be honest, I hate being home alone. I would rather be around tons of people. I am a people person. My husband on the other hand, he would rather be alone.

My husband just called to tell me that he made it to work. I worry about my hubby if I dont get a phone call. He works an hour away from where we live. See when we first got married we were going to move closer to his work, but we decided to try to get custody of this little boy who is in a rough situation. We moved here, to nowhereville, after having the little boy for two months (one week before our court date to get custody) his family came and took him back. I was so angry!! We had done so much for this little boy, but the fight isnt over because Thursday we have to go to court. Ive never even been to court before. I dont even know what to wear. My husband is such a wonderful man for allowing us to take that little boy even if his family did take him back two weekends ago.

I am pregnant and I am very scared. My husband and I have already had one miscarriage back in May. We haven't told anyone that I am pregnant yet, we are waiting until our doctors appointment on Friday to know for sure everything checks out. I am so nervous about this pregnancy and I am excited all at the same time. I want as many kids as possible. I really wanta have twins, but idk if I can handle twins. God wouldn't give me anything I couldn't handle.

I have to go to my dead in job today where I only get paid minimum wage, but then again, I get to sit down and read for most of the day. I just hate my job so much. It makes me feel like a loser. How could I have been so stupid to not finish college. My husband has a wonderful job and he doesnt even realize it, I wish I had a good job. One with normal hours and not having to work on the weekends. My husband is so lucky, I wish I was half as smart as him, then I could go places too. I just want a job that would make me proud to say this is where I work.

Enough of the bad thoughts or the stupid blog that no one is going to read, I am going to eat some pizza! Catch yal later.